2 Corinthians 5:8
We are confident, I say, and willing rather to be absent from the body, and to be present with the Lord.
I should be happy for you, my Son – I guess that is what this passage is trying to tell me. That is a hard thing for me to process. You are absent from your body, but also absent from our lives. I know you are with the LORD, present before HIM. That must be glorious. At the same time, I know you did not want to leave your family and friends. I know being with LORD is wonderful – but I selfishly want you with me, with us.
GOD, YOU have my baby – I know he is YOUR precious child too. I believe, I know YOU love my baby– so please take care of him.
Help me to focus on the joy he is feeling being with YOU. Help me to understand. Basically, just help me.
This definitely does not get any easier. 30 month and 4 days – and it is still a pain that defies words.
Hold it in. Keep trying.
My prayers are with all who are hurting and struggling. Just keep holding on.
Today, this Lakota prayer for the dead shared by a friend comforts me – I pray it comforts others too:
GrandFather Sky:
May your songs of the winds and clouds sweep the pain and sadness out of my friends’ hearts; as they hear those songs, let them know the spirits who are with those songs are at peace.
GatherStones 
You are professing a love and faith in your god yet you continue to ignore that love and faith as you continue to mourn. Then you try to create a site that generates and income as you do this mourning. What am I missing here?
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Compassion? My grief is not a straight line – it doesn’t fit a pattern – maybe that is difficult for some to understand. But grief is like that – for me. My God knows my love and knows I will stumble on my journey – my evolution.
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Reblogged this on When Angels Fly and commented:
This is the King of Loss. I know this loss all too well.
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Thank you
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Welcome!
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This is the King of Loss. I lost two boys, one before birth, and one age five years with a hard cancer/chemo/radiation battle. I know the loss, the hurt, the pain within.
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I am so very sorry – I hate that we are sisters in this pain, but I am grateful for the understanding. My broken heart is with you
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We shall walk this path and journey together for we are kindred spirits.
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